Then, I Walked Out

a1fb9050c32f11e29e0522000a1fa50c_7Today I walked out of my school. For the last time. A school that I grew up in, a school that I have enjoyed teaching in for the past ten years. A school that is not only where the people I love are, but also where I’ve learned to teach. I’d like to think one day, when you look back on your life, there will be certain moments that stand out. This was one of them. To leave? It broke my heart into a million tiny pieces, and yet, the tears that fell were happy ones. I hugged tiny third graders who I just got to know this year. I hugged kids I’ve taught who are now grown into young adults. I hugged colleagues who are like family. I hugged administrators who have inspired me to be able to walk out the door today. Then, I walked out.

I walked out because it’s what I believe in and because I hope every single kid that I have ever been lucky enough to teach understands something….  Your life is about doing what you believe in.  Even when that means walking out the door, from everything you’ve ever known and loved, and going somewhere new.  Because that’s the thing about dreams.  They are worth it.  Even when it’s not easy.  Even when it breaks your heart.

Yesterday I stood staring at an empty classroom, thinking, this is the part where the sad music would be playing.  Today? I realized just how full my life really is. I left with a tiny piece of paper, that I might just carry in my pocket all the way to Texas that says, “We love you, Mrs. V.”  Because in that note? It’s the reason I was able to walk out today.

  1. awesome: you are. you will be in your new school, too. your kids were lucky to have you as a teacher. will be lucky to have you next fall, next year.

    thanks for sharing.

  2. Krispy,
    I am so proud of you. Leaving can be hard, but also invigorating, because it will be something new, something else to learn, and maybe touch even more kiddos! The dreams, the possibilities, they’re yours for the asking! Keep us posted and good luck!

  3. Thank you for your post. I’m feeling some of the same things right now. You put the thoughts floating around in my head into heartfelt words.

  4. Jana Scott Lindsay says:

    I think the greatest gifts we can teach our students (and ourselves) is to follow our passions and confidently walk away… to a new beginning, another great opportunity to live, love, and learn.

    You inspire me each and every day with your generosity, your passion, your caring, your gifts… and today you have inspired me that when the time arises, I can take steps in any direction that this great wide world has to offer and WALK…. I might even be inclined to RUN!

  5. Congrats to you on this new journey! You are so brave to move your whole family out of the comfort zone and how wonderful that they are there to support you. Would not have been an option for me, when I was a school principal, as my husband’s business is here in So Cal. But now that our boys are older, my husband is moving out of construction (soon) into a more flexible work career, so we too want to open the door and explore other options. Have our sites set on the bay area. Sending good wishes to you as you close one door and throw open another!

  6. Krissy, I waited to read this because I knew it was going to be a tearjerker, and it was. I did the same thing last May after 15 years at the same school (19 years total). It was one of the hardest things I have ever done because I loved my job, the students, families, and teachers. I followed my dream of completing a Ph.D., which I did in December. Since January I have been searching for a new position. Nothing has turned up, yet, but I am hopeful. I know I did the right thing, just as you know you have, too. I’m sure you will find much happiness in your new position and will continue to inspire new students to reach for the stars, just as you have! Thanks for continuing to share your journey and inspiring me and so many others!

    • Debbie:
      Thank you! Just knowing that others have done the same and not looked back is inspiring. I know that the RIGHT position is just around the corner for you. I am so grateful to have met you and will enjoy hearing about your journey online! :) See you at #edcampSTL next year! Yes- I *have* to come back for that. Wouldn’t miss it for the world. :)

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